February 2020, the month I decided to free myself from the haunting memories of the past. The moment I was knocked down so hard that I wasn’t sure if I could get back up again. Every time I closed my eyes, I would relive the past. I was exhausted, hurt, and confused on what to do. My name is Stefanie, I am going to take you on a journey of these memories and what completely changed my life to being free!
One of my hardest memories, one I told myself not to think about for years. The memory that was so painful I sometimes wished I had ended up dead that night. I was 13 years old when my biological father got me very drunk and gave me a pill which made me black out. I was haunted by my dad standing over me laughing and wanting to take pictures, whilst I was sick and laying on the floor. For years I let this memory control my life not letting myself be free.
After living through my dad not being there when I was a kid, older men sexually assaulting me, my mom as a single struggling mom, I thought I was done living through the hardest part of my life. But just when I thought everything was going right after meeting, age 14, the man who became my husband, we had our entire world change on February 23, 2016.
We lost our son, Scott, when I was 7 months pregnant because I had a huge blood clot that was pushing him out. I felt like my body had failed, and then being told by my fertility doctors that I now couldn’t have kids naturally was even harder. My husband Jake completely changed my life, making me believe that the impossible IS possible. I remember him saying “doctors say we can’t have kids naturally but watch us. If you want to have a baby, nothing will get in our way.” Just like that, everything changed, and we have a healthy little girl who is now 3 years old.
Four years later I still felt the guilt from Scott and was haunted by memories of my dad. In February 2020 I wasn’t able to sleep because I was reliving these memories and guilt. I completely broke down and my business partner, Chelsea, not only took over all of the work but helped me become free from these memories when therapy didn’t work for me. She helped me master my mind, so I didn’t let my past control my future. I am now living my dream life and I want to empower others to do the same. I want to teach people that the impossible IS possible even if life knocks you down. Now Chelsea and I have over 4700 students currently enrolled and are living our best life!
