I have never run so fast in my life like that day, I’m not sure how I managed not to get run over by a car. The pain I was feeling inside had become my fuel to run.
I felt like a normal woman. One of those women with children, a stable job, a husband and a house to look after. A woman who every night would hide her dreams under the pillow in case someone would come and steal them while she slept. Those dreams were so precious that they felt almost untouchable and unreachable.
I was on maternity leave following the birth of my lovely twins, when I received a phone call from my HR manager asking me to return to my role as an Events and Marketing Manager
in the hospitality industry. Days and months passed. I often had to stay late or work at weekends, so my husband had to take care of the children, the nursery runs and all the entertainment.
My beautiful twins started to become a stranger to their mother. I would go and put them to bed at night, or go and brush their teeth, and I would always hear “ We do not want you mama, we want Daddy”. It hurt so much that I would spend nights crying with my head buried in my pillow, and my dreams forgotten underneath.
I knew something had to change, so the universe decided to shake things up for me. I was working at a work fair the day I got a call from the nursery. “ Debora, please run to A&E, your son has been taken to hospital.” “How is he? “ I asked, “we cannot tell you”. And the question just came out of my mouth, “ Is he alive?”. Same answer.
I started running like a madwoman, begging God, the universe and all the saints to please let my son live. I begged him to wait for mama, and I promised him I would be the one doing all the nursery runs, playing with him and teaching him how to go after his dreams, because I was going to follow mine too.
My son listened to me and decided to wait. He was alive.
Soon after, I left my job and started my own business. I kept my promise. I started spending lots of time with my boys rebuilding my relationship with them. I began to show them how to follow their dreams, by leading with my own actions and not only with my words.
I remember the day, months later, when my twins an to me, hugged me and said: “Mama I love you”. I felt such joy. There is nothing you cannot change in your life if you really want to. We have the power to create our reality and live the life we truly desire.
My dreams are no longer buried and forgotten under a pillow, I take them with me and live them every single day.